Friday, December 20, 2013

A Helpless Babe



“Advent teaches us that God does not come with power to make the world right. God comes (…), and hope for a new world is born in a nondescript cow stall in an obscure town called Bethlehem. God arrives by way of the human sweat and blood in which everyone is born. God comes (…) to save the world, not by what the world calls power but by the subversive and often hidden power of self-giving love. God comes (...), and hope is born.” James Harnish (The Upper Room)

Waking up this morning to these words made me feel both challenged and inspired. Christmas is coming. As each day passes, more and more of us are leaning in, trying to get a peek. Something is happening in the manger. Not a silent night by any stretch of the imagination. It’s labor. The human experience of agony, relief, anxiety, and hope all occupying the same space. Is the product of this all too human dawning what we expect? What now?

A helpless babe; is that all? This infant won’t survive the night without constant care. He has no way to maintain his own body heat, so his mother wraps him tightly in whatever rags are close at hand. He will starve unless someone gives of themselves to supply him with food. He can’t protect himself. Someone will need to stand up for him when he can’t stand up for himself. He has no means, no shelter, and no strength; yet, to us a savior is born?

The messengers sing. They sing glory to the new born king, born is the king of Israel, today a savior is born – a message heard in pastures close by and in cities far away. Fear not??? I wonder if the fear we are trying to prevent is fear of an unexpected message given by a stranger, or fear that our savior is a helpless babe, fear that our savior needs a great deal of saving himself.

This helpless babe seeks to heal our lives by the wonders of his love. Maybe the fact that he comes to us in this neediest of forms is just the balm we need for our sin sick souls. Are we not moved by the faces of need? Are we not called by a needy savior to new ways of life – life abundant? To the face of need, wise men bring presents. To the face of need, a community brings presence. When we lean into the manger, do we see the face of need – a helpless babe? Do we feel challenged and inspired by an infant lowly, an infant holy?

The face of need is breaking into my world this Christmas. The food pantry gave out 150 bags of food last night. The face of need waited patiently at our doors throughout the cold and breezy day. The face of need will show up again – we will eat a hot meal together at 5:30 on December 22nd. It is a wondrous love that calls us together – makes community where we imagine competition. As I gaze upon the landscape of our community beside the faithful servants of this church, we notice together needs that overwhelm us. The helpless babe shows us our fears as well as our capacity for love – both are so powerful.

The helpless babe challenges and inspires us to embrace the power of love in spite of the power of fear. My prayer is that we see the holy within the lowly in the Christmas moment and in the moments that follow. God give us new hope. Show us that our offerings of presents and presence are truly the beginnings of relationships. Nurture in us the willingness to be in relationship. Open our hearts to welcome the helpless babe into our celebrations, into our churches, into our communities, and into our lives. Make born this day, a savior. Hope; it’s what’s for Christmas.
 
Enjoy God,

pg



Friday, December 13, 2013

Blue Christmas




Seasons come and go, but not always on a schedule. Our society wants to schedule the season of Joy. We want to put merriment on the calendar so that we can prepare for it. In many cases, this arrangement makes perfect sense.  For thousands more people Christmas joy has been eagerly anticipated until recently. Despite its joys, Christmastime can evoke feelings of hurt for some individuals experiencing difficult life situations. Losing a loved one, especially on Christmas, being let go from a job or financial struggles in general, dealing with broken relationships, suffering from an illness or loneliness can cause depression during the holidays.

The traumas of life can make us feel immune to the “Christmas spirit” at times. Imagine how the world looks when we are out of sync with the season. It seems like the whole world is out of balance. Someone flipped a switch and we are invited to be “merry” six times a day. Radio stations have changed their programming to meet the new demand for celebration. We are shopping for groceries to a serenade of expectation – “have a Holly Jolly Christmas. It’s the best time of the year…” The firemen put antlers on engine #3. Everywhere we look, there is a fashion resistant sweater, a house covered in blinking lights, another tray of cookies and fudge, cards filling the mailbox, trees being lit, commercials, even church embraces this pervasive sentiment. It certainly is not for a lack of trying; but, some of us just can’t get on the jolly train.

The questions begin to mount both internally and from the world at large. Is there something wrong? Are we so different that we should avoid contact with the cheery world at all costs? Should we be “faking it” just so our families don’t worry?  Are we ungrateful – unwilling to pay the debt of cheer to a deserving community? Are we changed forever? Are we doomed to spending months every year as a gloomy contrast to the world of twinkling red and green? Should we seek help for our conditions of hopelessness? Am I not capable of hope anymore?
Even the tales of Christmas woe are a little oversimplified. Scrooge Mc Duck needed to be cured of greed. Ebenezer suffered from being out of touch with the common suffering of humanity. The Grinch had never witnessed an unexplainable love. So when the world is exposed to sorrow in the season of joy, the natural assumption is that there is something “wrong” with the person who is experiencing sadness – we just need the right “cure”: we can ”fix it.”

The fact is, we just need to create space. Sadness is not hopelessness. Grief does not pay any attention to the calendar. If we are honest, we can recognize that many of the deepest experiences of hope, love, and faith are discovered in the depth of lamentation. We are emotional beings. Our understanding of the richness of life seems to come through the emotional highs, but this point of view is an emotional illusion. Emotional highs are in and of themselves evidence of emotional lows. We cannot cherish one without the other. When we give ourselves permission to be present for the sadness in our lives the door is wide open for life and life abundant.

 Diving into a season of hope with eager longing doesn’t need to look the same for everyone. Some celebrate with green and red. Some want to glitter with gold and silver. It can be just as valid to welcome the season of Christmas with the color blue. It is fertile ground for hope when we ring in the new year with a tear instead of a kiss. 

When we come to worship, we need to bring our real selves. We need to be able to say that I am here. I am completely here and completely welcome with my sadness, my loneliness, my frustration, my illness, my sorrow. We need to be able to recognize that we are here together – there is space for your complete emotional being and mine together. We need to know that God is also here – God that suffered, God that prayed, God that died, & God that lives, resurrected and calling us beloved. Worship is communion with God and one another. Worship welcomes me in both sadness and joy.

Blue Christmas will be celebrated at 7:00pm on December 21st, 2013 in the sanctuary of the United Methodist Church of Merced (899 Yosemite Parkway). This is often called a service of the longest night because it is the longest night of the year.  Yet, this is also the day that the season of encroaching darkness gives way to the season of encroaching light. We will acknowledge the emotional wilderness of sorrow and grief. We will give each other personal space to hold, identify, and recognize the weight our sorrows. We will honor this way of being with prayer, candle lighting, communion, and song. We will know Emmanuel – God with us. Not conditionally upon our behavior or our attitude; but, God with us in all of the seasons of our lives. Hope: It’s what’s for Christmas.

Praise be to God,

pg

Friday, December 6, 2013

Bazaar Christmas



The United Methodist Church of Merced is many things, but I relish the fact that one of UMC Merced’s titles could be “Home of Bazaar Christmas.” It was like someone shot the starters pistol. The moment I was back from my Thanksgiving vacation the church was a new place. There were people bustling around the halls at the earliest hours in the morning. I was shocked by the level of intensity in everyone’s eyes. I was impressed by the seemingly unspoken organization that gave structure to everyone’s activities. I noticed that I am seeing Christmas. In every community Christmas has its own shape. It’s more than a season. It’s a culture that runs deep: living in memories, modeled for generations, revered and dripping with hope, pride, expectation, and sacrifice. Is it any wonder that as a newcomer I  would call it Bazaar Christmas. Where would we be if not for the Bazaar?

This year we are holding the 83rd annual Bazaar. The United Methodist Women weren’t even United Methodists when this started, since the name United Methodist was created in 1968. The Church wasn’t on Yosemite Parkway when it started. In fact, it was before the church at 19th & M too. This all started on 20th and H Street. Why? All of these decades of Bazaar Christmas have been dedicated to raising money for mission in the community and around the globe – often as much as $10,000. It is people gathering in response to God’s grace; seeking to make an offering of time, talent, treasure, witness, & prayer. It is a fermenting Christmas hope; hope that fills the hearts and lives of the workers, hope that overflows and enriches the community, hope that encourages and supports and reveals a Christmas meaning so deep that the absence of this event would create a profound void in the community.

I got the chance to ask people all week what inspired hope in this time of year. Questions like this attempt to engage us in the enduring presence of hope. They remind us of hope’s persistence throughout the years. They alert us to the hope waiting for us on the horizon. I was so touched by the comment of Jim Macedo. Even though he is struggling through another round of Chemotherapy, unable to eat without the assistance of a feeding tube, he shared profound image of hope with me. He said, “I am so glad to be here for Thanksgiving with family. It’s sure different when you can’t eat, but I was able to listen for the laughter. It’s all about the laughter. That’s living and I love it.” Hope overflowed from Jim and I was drenched in it. Life is always changing; maybe Bazaar Christmas is the new normal.

For many people that I talked to we noticed that life has changed so much, we don’t even know how to anticipate and participate in the hope of Christmas anymore. These words echoed in so many conversations. “I am much older than I use to be.” “Things just aren’t the way they use to be.” “I don’t look forward so much anymore.” “So much is changed with the loss of (My wife, my husband, the children).” “That’s a hard one.” Yet hope has never abandoned us. We’ve had precious opportunities to celebrate together, to remember, to create Christmas memories during this Bazaar Christmas. Singing carols with workers has filled me with joy as I remembered my childhood singing with aunts and uncles and learning harmonies. We shared the fragrance of the Noble Pine and I remembered the smell of Lake Tahoe where I received the gift of my first child Kaela. (Joy to the world). We prayed in the hallways and I remembered how moving work can be when we take time to dwell in the spirit of life. Even when hope is hard to apprehend, it flowed so freely and so often – Bazaar Christmas indeed.

You can’t imagine how grateful I am for a Bazaar Christmas. I met people in new ways and we recalled the legacy of the event with warm hearts. I was in the “Christmas Room” with Michelle Moore. She is brand new to our community and participates at every opportunity. She showed me the hand stitched snowman ornaments that she made and so many other detailed ornaments. New talent is a blessing. She was in the room that smelled like pine because Donna Hall has been dedicated for years to weaving nature into Christmas reminders of God’s glory.
 
Jane Matthews was smiling away in the Jam & Jelly Room. This year we named this room for Margaret Freed who passed this summer. We can’t help but remember the passion and spirit of Margaret. She made a mission out of this Bazaar stuff; platooning people into pomegranate crushing for her famous jelly, personally eradicating the concept of idle hands. Yet we give thanks to God that Jane would give herself so freely to a labor of love that honors a legacy so freshly left. 

It occurs to me that if we had to try to store hope in a container, the container would have to be legacy. Charlene Smiley found a hand stitched Christmas stocking at home. It has an adorable little mouse peeking out of the top. Suddenly she was awash in the memory of Dorothy Shiely who made crafts in so many years passed. Connie Jones was moved to make the poured mint candies in honor of Enid Olive. ( I just received my invitation to Enid’s 100th birthday party in January) Connie tells me that Enid has been a continuous supporter of the candy room for decades. This room is now staffed by hearts and hands – a group that includes Joyce Hambley who just discovered that she can make candy too. After the annual one-pound cheese ball making extravaganza, Laura Warner laughed out loud remembering the eager children; like Anna Durbin, who would bite into the cheeseball as soon as it was purchased every year, enjoying the rest of Bazaar Christmas with more cheese face than cheese ball. Our Hmong congregation has found the spirit irresistible; creating a special room for egg rolls and special Hmong handicrafts. The legacy container never seems to empty. One group recalled the tea room where tea accompanies delicious desserts for weary shoppers. Mattie Rose can still be pictured serving tea; until the picture in our mind changes to her daughter Mary Fran Rowe. Suddenly the picture changes again to her granddaughter Claudia Speziale and I am sure some of you have even pictured her great granddaughter Kaytie Rose holding tea and pie as well. An event like this is not something I’ve ever seen before – this is Bazaar Christmas.

Where would we be without the Bazaar? We would be missing something precious. We would be missing something overflowing with hope. We would be missing something Christmas.  What a blessing!

Hope: It’s what’s for Christmas.

Enjoy God,

Pg

Saturday, November 16, 2013

Mabuhay!



Mabuhay Ka Dakilang Dios is a favorite hymn in the Filipino-Methodist tradition. Roughly translated, I believe it means “welcome, you great God”. This is my deep sentiment as we enter November 17th, our celebration of 100 years of Methodist faith journeys with God’s children of Filipino heritage.  I am excited to accept the invitation for our congregation to recognize the ways that diversity has been weaved into our faith communities. (“All Means All” in so many ways)  Welcoming God is also my sentiment  as we grieve in solidarity with people whose lives have been change forever by Typhoon Haiyan. The pictures and stories of horrific destruction and heart wrenching recovery are unsettling, even soul quickening – restless spirit, work through me. God is a loving and creating God. Certainly this Dakilang Dios is welcome in the most tragic of circumstances. From a distance, it seems like all we can do in a time like this is unite in prayer, but I am not sure that is true.

Mabuhay Ka Dakilang Dios is also the sentiment that calls each one of us be made new by God today. The creating God of all is creating in us as well – stirring our hearts, rending a compassion that changes lives. Today I read a story about the aftermath of Haiyan. The author of a British newspaper was astonished at the unusual characteristics of this aftermath. He wrote that normally we see masses of people flocking away from disasters as fast as possible. Yet, in Tacloban the traffic is decidedly headed INTO the center of devastation and heartbreak. With the Philippine Government paralyzed and infrastructure demolished, people are charging in to towns and villages to bring aide to people that are mourning, starving, and resurrecting all at once. Sometimes a heart open to Dakilang Dios is moved to act in unpredictable ways. I hope we all feel urged to new levels of compassion – called into the fray instead of out of the way.
Bishop Warner H. Brown encourages our 
solidarity in a formal statement of compassion, even as the storm was striking the coast of the Philippines. “Our humanitarian relief and development agency, the United Methodist Committee On Relief (UMCOR), is monitoring the developing situation (currently, on the ground at the point of devastation). For this emergency, and others that arise, donations to UMCOR are channeled through The Advance. One-hundred percent of each donation goes directly to the disaster. Donations to International Disaster Response, Advance #982450, will be used to respond to this and similar emergencies.”

Merced is home to a growing and thriving Filipino – American community. My neighborhood in particular is a wellspring of influential, supportive, community shaping people of Filipino heritage.  I am certain that our community would be set back in the absence of the significant contributions of those who came from the Philippines to journey with us as citizens and workers in a common community.

The same is true of our entire annual Conference. I would like to share some of the history that was written by the California-Nevada Filipino American Methodists in reflection of the 100th anniversary of Filipino participation in the Methodist tradition. These are the words of our own Filipino faith community. They are proud to share the history of partnership and enrichment that Filipino Methodists have contributed to the life of our church. Please read and enjoy the exciting contributions that have reinforced our conference and our faith.

To date, the list of Filipino churches and other United Methodist Churches with predominantly Filipino presence in our Conference includes: Grace-St. Francis, Vallejo Fellowship, South Hayward, St. Paul’s in Fremont, Fresno Christian Fellowship, St. Paul’s in Stockton, Daly City UMC, Geneva Avenue UMC, Pinole UMC, Valley Faith, and Delano UMC. It should be noted that only four out of the eleven churches are served by Filipino Pastors.

In addition to local Filipino churches developed and chartered, another unique and significant contribution of Filipino ministry in our conference was the adoption of a century old yet new ministry to the youth in this Annual Conference called Christmas Institute. It is a school of faith for youths and young adults held annually for five days after Christmas Day. This Methodist Church program in the Philippines attracted many young people whose faiths were nourished and their love for the church deepened. It
facilitated friendships among the participants that later blossomed into committed relationships. The school also became a vehicle of clergy and deaconess recruitment.

 In this Conference, this program ministry started when Arturo Capuli took some young people from Grace UMC and Fresno Fellowship to attend the Christmas Institute held December of 1984 at the Los Angeles National Forest sponsored by the Filipino Caucus of the California Paci fic Annual Conference. The following year, with the leadership of Rev. David Rodriguez, Rev. Nathanael Cort
ez, and lay members Rosadia Escueta, Regina Eng, Boni Capistrano, Marcelo and Josefina Capistrano, and Ruth Cortez, a Christmas Institute was held in San Francisco attended by a large number of youths and young adults. Since then, this uniquely significant ministry program is held annually participated in by youths from Filipino churches and their friends. The program has now evolved to
be self supporting and largely led by youths and young adults. The yearly average attendance is 150.

 List of Filipino Clergy in the 2013 Journal of the California Nevada Annual Conference: (see Appendix A. Out of this number, two served as District Superintendents: Ruth O.Cortez and Benoni Silva-Netto. In 1999, Ruth Cortez was appointed Shasta District Superintendent by Bishop Melvin Talbert to become the first Filipino in California Nevada Annual Conference and the first Filipino woman in the United States to hold such an office. Benoni Silva-Netto was appointed District Superintendent of Shasta District by Bishop Beverly Shamana in 2005. Among the clergy, Felicisimo Cao was elected Chair of the Conference Board of Ordained Ministry in 2013, becoming the first Filipino to assume such responsibility in this Conference. Another Filipino clergy, Bener Agtarap, has been appointed by Bishop Warner Brown as Superintendent for Church Growth and Vitality.
This Conference wide recognition is not confined to the clergy. Many of the lay people in our Conference became actively involved in the work and organizational structure of the Annual Conference. Laddie Perez Galang have been chair of the Committee on Nominations for many years and currently serves as chair of Conference Mission Service (formerly Conference Board of Missions). Alice
Pena have been involved actively in the work of the Conference. All of the recent Filipino recipients of
the Annual Conference Bishop’s Award were lay women: Alice Pena (deceased), Virginia
Maniti Williams, and Ruby Bago.

 In more recent years, Filipino churches, groups, lay and clergy, have contributed to the growth of the total ministry in California Nevada Annual Conference.

In the realm of liturgy and music Ministry, Pasasalamat (A Call to Thanksgiving) is the Annual Thanksgiving Gathering of Filipino American churches, usually held in November on a Saturday before Thanksgiving Day. The whole day is dedicated to worship, fellowship, sharing of talents, and dining together. The liturgy and music have distinctly Filipino flavor expressing the experience of the past, appreciation of the present, and hope for the future. Among the local church singing groups that have been notably appreciated are the Pinole UMC Singing Ensemble and the Melrose UMC Spiritual Image.
The latter has been invited to sing in local churches, civic gatherings, and musical concerts including performances during 2004 and 2008 General Conferences (Global Gathering) of the United Methodist Church. The Spiritual Image also sang in concerts in the Philippines and Myanmar.


In the sphere of social justice, in 2006, a group of Filipino pastors and lay people brought to the attention and action of the Annual Conference in session the spate of extra-judicial killings in the Philippines targeting journalists, civic leaders, human rights activists, clergy and church lay leaders. The response of the Conference was the creation of the Philippine Pastoral and Solidarity Task Force, who in partnership with the National Council of Churches in the Philippines (NCCP), made its first solidarity trip in 2007. The then presiding Bishop, Bishop Beverly Shamana, led the first team of sixteen (16) clergy and lay persons. The first team and all the teams that since made the trip had face to face meetings with families and other survivors of victims of extra-judicial killings, abductions, harassments, and torture. The team also met with government and military officials, most notably, the Chief Justice of the Philippine Supreme Court, Reynato Puno, a United Methodist. From this initial trip, a DVD and Study

Guide on human rights issue in the Philippines were made and distributed to United Methodist Churches in California and Nevada. Bishop Warner Brown, the current resident bishop, has also made the solidarity visit with the task force in a recent year. The latest solidarity trip was made in July 2013. Participants in the on-going program have become advocates for justice bringing backstories of injustice to the United States and the international community. The National Council of Churches in the Philippines and other human rights advocates in the Philippines have been urging the members of the Task Force and the whole Annual Conference to help in pressing both the Philippine Government and the National

Democratic Front to continue the peace talks and eventually end the more than thirty years war of insurgency.

Volunteers in Mission is another area where Filipino AmericanUMCs are actively involved. The most notable is the Medical Mission that visits the Philippines yearly and partners with some Philippine medical practitioners to provide healthcare assistance to the poor.

To continue the work done in the formation of new congregations and revitalization of existing ones, the Annual Conference Session in June 2009 approved the creation of a Committee to focus on this program ministry. The Conference Committee on Filipino American Ministry (CCFAM) was created and mandated to grow a strong sense of unity among Filipinos, develop a sense of mission and ministry, celebrate and enhance Filipino cultural roots and values, fully engaged and support NAFAUM (National Association of Filipino American United Methodists) And PAGLAGO, the national Filipino program for church growth and development.

The previous paragraphs provide some clues on where the ministry of and among Filipinos in California Nevada Annual Conference is headed and what may be the shape and contour of that ministry.

Currently, there are twenty seven (27) active and retired clergy in the California Nevada Annual conference

1.Jeannelle Ablola
2.Bener Agtarap
3.Leonard Autajay
4.Mark Buenafe
5.Paul Cabotaje
6.Alex Cambe
7.Felicisimo Cao
8.Arturo Capuli
9.Arnel Clemente
10.Ruth O. Cortez
11.Winston Cruz
12.Estan Cueto
13.Elmar de Ocera
14.Wilson de Ocera
15.Deborah Dillon
16.Elpidio Estolas
17.Romeo Gunzon
18.Rodrigo Estrada
19.Reynaldo Letana
20.Edilberto Lubiano
21.David Rodriguez
22.Emil Sazon
23Benoni Silva-Netto
24 Dante Simon
25.Florante Tangonan
26.Tony Ubalde
27.Romeo Velasco